Heart Attack

Yesterday I had a heart attack!!!
It wasn't my first, though it may be the first time that I have acknowledged one. After years of suffering from reoccurring heart attacks, I have finally come to realize that this deep pain I am experiencing is a result of when I allow my heart to stray from God. Winston Churchill said,

"Men occasionally stumble over the truth, but most of them pick themselves up and hurry off as if nothing ever happened."

This statement is definitely true of my own life. For years I have felt the pains of my sins but never really associated them with a heart issue. Like a physical heart attack we should recognize the true pains in our spiritual heart as we ignore a loving God. More than my pain though is the thought of the pain that God experiences in His heart as I fail to love Him with all of my heart, soul, mind, and strength.

Relativism has quietly crept into everyday thinking and is one of the pain killers Satan uses to help numb us from our heart's pain. Having grown up in a Christian home, and active in church for nearly my entire life, the devil whispers to me that I am better than others. He convinces me to compare myself to others rather than the real measuring stick, Jesus Christ. I find myself feeling like God got a bargain when He saved me--but then the pain . . . not in my left arm or chest, but in my spiritual heart. This pain seems to coincide with my love for myself (or my lack of love for Christ).

I am turning into Simon the Pharisee (Luke 7:36-50). Simon was so religious he missed the fact that he was supposed to "love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind" (Matthew 22:37). Simply put, I forget that Jesus had to forgive a great deal of sin to redeem me; therefore, I don't love Jesus as much as I love myself and even other things (see Luke 7:47). When I become self-centered rather than a devoted follower of Christ, I rarely depend upon God, and I have an even weaker desire to please Him.

In the garden of Eden, Satan encouraged Eve to believe that God was holding her back from all that she could be, could do, and could have. He has been telling me and unfortunately many others that very same thing for years, and we wander off believing that God is boring and so is Christianity. We buy into the deception that Adam faced when he ate of the fruit seeking to maintain a relationship with Eve over a relationship with God, that God is unable to give us great relationships. We foster our own bad choices to go away.

I am taking the treatments to help with the heart attacks. The medicine is a healthy dose of God's Word applied to my whole life daily. The truth is that I will be able to control this heart pain whenever I choose to draw close to God. He never has moved away from me, nor has He ever loved me less. I guess it's time to take my medicine if I want to be well!

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